YogaBug

Being a yogi is, in some ways, like being a child again. You notice things most adults overlook, regain that sense of adventure and allow yourself to be engrossed in anything until you are fully satisfied. You ask questions until you understand. You are not ashamed to need help or a hand to hold. Without condition, you love, trust and share.

I hope at least one thing I share here rekindles your sense of wonder. Love and light -Nessybug

Timing is Everything

The country girl in me cannot help but think of “Country Strong” and forget that not only is this adage the title of a GREAT song, but it also rings so very true. I was so down and out this week, completely overtaken with disappointment, that I forgot just how much this saying has played into my life. I lost faith in timing. 

Timing has been such a huge factor in many aspects of my life, from relationships all the way to hairstyle. Trying to ignore the necessity of right timing has always led me to heartache and bouts with mild depression. I have forced relationships and jobs that were not right, that I was not READY for, only to find myself crying into a pillow wondering why I was not happy. Without the right timing things in my life quickly went awry, triggering disordered eating among many other imbalances. Just like a cake that is taken out of the oven too early, my life without timing would just fall apart. 

I am lucky. I have gotten the timing on a few things right, but it was not without my fair share of trials and errors. I have an amazing and supportive boyfriend, a job I do not dread showing up for and I am well on my way to building my career. Without all the pushing and pulling, I definitely have found a general feeling of balance in my life, of RIGHTness. So why now, after so much evidence to support the contrary, was I trying to fight timing? Old habits, I guess. 

I have chosen to accept that this was not the right time for that thing I wanted so very badly. Perhaps it is hard to see now, but something was off. Or maybe something bigger and better is just around the corner, and would not have been accessible had I been tied up with this other commitment. One door closes, and all that. :)

Whatever it is, I trust that things will work themselves out. And to be honest, my life is pretty awesome as it is anyway. 

Mahbaby

Mahbaby

Grown Up Troubles

I have lived on my own, worked multiple part-time jobs and paid rent for almost 8 years now. Through all the trips to the laundromat, scrambling for rent money, being hungry the last and first few days of each month, overflowing trash for a week because I forgot to set it out, grocery lists and dirty dishes I have considered myself a full-fledged, self-sufficient adult. Well, I was wrong. 

As sad as I am to realize it, nothing has tossed me into the throes of adulthood like having to let go of a dream. Realizing your priorities make you a “grown up”. And, being the starry-eyed dreamer that I am, I am so heartbroken at this discovery. I have been lucky enough to be presented with many opportunities and much good fortune when it comes to my various whims, goals and pursuits. And everything I have done, experienced and accomplished have made me a better person, a well-rounded person. I have many interests and passions and enjoy sharing those with others. My journey has not been without direction, but it has been multifaceted.

At the moment, I am feeling desolate and defeated. Something I really wanted is no longer within reach, at least for the time being. I know that this is just a speed bump and it does not necessarily mean the end, but it hurts all the same. The timing was perfect, I was prepared both mentally and physically for the challenge and I would have had another leg of my path paved for me. The only thing in my way is MONEY, which is just a whole pound of salt cascading into the gaping wound. 

I will never give up on my aspirations, and of course I will push on. For today, however, I have succumbed to despair- a “grown up” emotion indeed. 

I Love Today

On my afternoon hike with my best friend I was feeling grateful to have her, a friend I can call at any hour and know she will be there for me. I am appreciative of the gorgeous city I live in, where I can hike at the end of November in 70 degree weather. I inhale the fresh air and feel it bring oxygen to my strong and healthy body, exhale and forget all the petty worries. I think of the love I have surrounded myself with, and know I am truly blessed. 

Take time today to be present. Think of all that you have and not all you wish you had. Send love to those you care about, but most of all, to yourself. Be grateful, be playful, be joyous, BE LOVE.

In light and love,

V.

On our way to grandma’s!

On our way to grandma’s!

PoseProse

Pose of the day: best place to start is with zeee basics! CHILD’S POSE -balasana..

Beginning in a kneeling position, walk your knees wide to the edges of your mat and bring your big toes to touch. Allow your feet to relax and bring your sit bones onto your heels. Gently use your hands to walk your upper body forward, folding yourself over your knees and bringing your forehead to rest on the mat. Fingertips reach towards the top of your mat as your shoulders relax away from the ears.

Bring your focus onto your breath. Allow the to-do lists and schedules to fade away. Inhale through the nose, feeling your lungs expanding in your chest. Exhale through the mouth, releasing tension. Inhale new air, bringing oxygen to your muscles and refreshing your mind. Exhale stale air, sending negativity and worry away. Stay here for several breaths, allowing yourself to step out of your body and preparing for the rest of your practice. Return here whenever you need to re-center and come back to your breath.

The breath is the most important part of your practice. It drives your motions and fuels your muscles. It steadies your heart rate and your thoughts. Your breath is always there for you, just as asana is always there for you. Use your breath to open your heart and mind.

In light and love,

V.